Excitement and exhaustion

I don’t have much to report today, so this will be a rather short post.

I am seriously exhausted once again today, but it’s not all bad. A lot of my exhaustion the last few days has come from the anxiety of opening and stocking my Etsy shop, which is definitely a good kind of stress! Still, though, it has been stressful and it has me all worked up and excited. My heart feels full and I feel loved. I got several orders since I opened, and I am beyond grateful. I totally didn’t think anything would sell anytime soon. It’s a wonderful feeling when others appreciate my art.

I’ll admit that setting up and running my shop has felt like a huge job in itself – but it’s a job I’m happy to do. I’ve never sold my artwork before, and this is all new territory for me. It feels like work, but it’s also that almost familiar feeling of motivation. I feel like I have a purpose, and that purpose is to make art and take care of my home. I honestly didn’t expect it to be this much work, but I’m glad to be filling my day with it nonetheless. I have a new appreciation for small business owners and artists, for sure.

I am feeling fairly mixed today, emotionally. I feel depression coming on, just looming around. I think I might be crashing a bit again, because of all the excitement lately. It has been emotional putting myself and my products out there, and I didn’t really expect that. My emotions enjoy blindsiding me quite often. It’s how life has always been. I feel depression creeping in, and I wish it wouldn’t. Just don’t, scumbag brain. But I’m sure it will.

I’m hanging out in the grow room now, with our lovely plants and my husband. It always makes me feel a little better when I bask in their “sunlight” (powerful LED fixtures). He’s taking photos, and I’m enjoying the white noise of the fans. That and the music that my brain thinks I’m hearing ha.

I kept forgetting that today was my husband’s day off, and continued to be pleasantly surprised when I realized he didn’t have to go into work. This probably happened around five or six times this morning. It has been a good day with him. He worked on his car, and I kept him company while hoop dancing with music on. It was so humid today, but I wanted to be out there.

I don’t have much else to say about today, just a short post. Hope y’all are having a great day!

Stay insane, friends

~kiti

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